“circumstances”

…are a catalyst. You energetically create them, as a way of igniting/initiating/evoking your power. They emanate from your source as a way of deliberately activating and accelerating your spirit energy.

Through ceremony or ritual, they serve to heat up your intention. They add fire energy to your desire by creating passion, instilling enthusiasm, and fostering commitment.

All the while, you’re provided with divine security and protection through your transformation.

They offer you a view into your relationship with your own spirituality, religious attitudes and beliefs, provide you the opportunity to gain a broader perspective, and allow for a psychic view into the truth of what is really going on in your life. They present the opportunity to realize the deeper emotions of your soul, call you to the secretive, seductive, otherwise unknowable shadow aspects of your own, personal power that you’ve not yet realized.

They guide you to your own innate ability to *reincorporate parts of your self, to realize your multi-faceted nature, to your capacity for expanding in multiple directions. They are divine direction from your higher self. Although it might not appear that way, they are always ‘on track with your life’, in the way that they lead you towards your innermost self, towards your brilliantly intuitive soul. Allow them to guide you towards True success, power, and influence.

When you’re feeling low on energy, especially, your source is transmitting the message to surrender your attachments, as a means of gaining clarity. Allow for the rise of the instinctive, primitive feelings that they prompt. Make an ally of your resistance, to bring out your untamed animal power, your connection to your wild side… sexy, tough, strong. You’ll find strength, groundedness, and stability through this ancient wisdom. With its rise comes an ability to get a handle on life, to take control. Your innermost being is providing you capable, knowledgeable, and useful assistance. Your power is intimately connected to the right hand of God, the macrocosm within the microcosm. Reap the abundant harvest that the rise of this in your personal power provides; allow your visions to come to fruition.

Get a handle on what’s beneath the surface, the loyalties you cling to that keep you from realizing your mysterious depths. Emotional issues and unconscious desires may seem a strange and foreign area of life, but they’ll give you access to the vastness that is your passion and spirituality.

You are naturally suited to this (element). It is you. You will not leave yourself behind. You will not leave yourself without support. You will not leave yourself without a way of communicating your needs to others. Through journeying with your emotions, you will see clearly!

Enter the space of feminine creation. On the other side is freedom, unity, a whole new beginning and dimension of your being. Your inner children provide innocence, surrender, peace, and protection. They allow for the natural expression of femininity, vulnerability, softness, sensuality. They are the seat of your power. Through the perspective that you gain by re-incorporating them, you are able to own your energy and influence.

*Each healing that I’m blessed to participate in manifests differently depending on how I‘m intuitively guided. That said, much of what transpires can be described as ‘soul retrieval‘. Here’s a very basic definition… When you undergo something traumatic enough in your life (either physically or emotionally) such that your soul feels as though it might not be safe to remain in your body, it'll send off parts of itself for safe-keeping. If you're in a serious car accident, for example, and it appears that you might not survive, off a piece goes, for the sake of ‘safe-keeping’. Soul retrieval is the process you go through to get those pieces/fragments back so that you can be whole again. It can involve the discovery of identities whom you were in past lives and helping them ascend so they can rejoin their soul-group (in effect, connecting to you), or finding parts of you that became disconnected earlier in this life, as in the case of challenges experienced during childhood. While what you imagine the process to be like may leave you feeling a little unsettled - even apprehensive - at first, once you realize the gifts/benefits you gain from reincorporating one soul fragment, you’ll find yourself surprisingly, pleasantly excited to retrieve others!

If what’s presented in the article above appeals to you, contact me for a Free consultation, and I’ll do my best to advise you in what my guidance suggests would be most helpful to you on your healing journey.

Big Medicine Love to You!

~ Black Feather



(For those of you who follow my writings out of an interest in channeling and symbolism, what follows is - as ’functional’ as I can offer - a literal description of the visual messages I transcribed to arrive at the article (in italics) above:)

a chrome lighter with the lid open

(((((((())))))))
(with a flame in the centre)

looking through (the flame),
at the black (spaces) in between church windows

(figure)
starfish hairband/antenna/
candle, unlit
wraps of leather around (her) black hair
a (rock) hand holding sheaf (sp?) of grain

hand like a sea (‘clinger’/) dog

goose, merganser

the void under a white dress - seated

(thanks to the work of Kelly Sullivan-Walden for contributing to this translation)

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Robin Medicine: Bravery(?) has its Rewards!

Sha-moose and I have been busking on the Royal Mile the last couple of days. I wanted to share with you how incredibly rewarding it's been by relating one of the experiences I was blessed with...

I have to say that I was a little nervous about busking to begin with. Actually (who am I trying to kid?), I had some altogether serious butterflies in my belly. I did try my best to be grateful for them, though; after all, they are symbolic of a beautiful transformation to come!

I had set up with a chair, a puppet, and a sign that reads "Ask Sha-moose... for a vision of clarity". I put a couple of 'suggestion' questions (that people often ask) up, too: "Will I find True Love?", and "What's my animal Power?"

As Sha-moose was amusing me between vision quest requests (you can read that as: doing his best to keep me from 'chucking butterflies'), I noticed a group of teenage boys at the edge of my vision who seemed to have been watching me/us for a while. They came up as a group and one of them asked (I might have imagined it, but he seemed to be asking kind of smugly), "So... What's the meaning of Life?"

...

I said that I could tell him what the meaning of life might be for him (in hindsight, I'm ever so grateful that he decided to follow through). He waited for me to continue. (Sha-moose) said to him that he'd seek a vision, and added (as he often does) that it helps to hear the voice of the person that he's visioning for; he'd receive a vision regardless, but it can take longer otherwise. He asked the boy if he'd mind singing, and - without waiting for a reply - put the feather over his Moosey puppet eyes and got into it. Again, perhaps my imagination, but it seemed to me that - since he'd been (bolstered) to take it this far - the young man wouldn't want it to seem that he was backing down now.

He sang. And I can't begin to tell you how beautiful I found it. I was so overwhelmed that I lost all thought. I couldn't even remember what song it was, although I was sure I'd heard it before - a love song that included the name "Cynthia" (I think).

Immediately, I saw a vision of a Robin. After just a couple of lines into his song, Sha-moose interrupted and started extolling Robin's Medicine. Robin is the first bird to sing in the morning. Robin's red breast is the colour of the rising sun. By being the first to express his true self, he calls forth the dawn. He's a solitary singer; he doesn't need to convince anyone else.

Robin sings. That's what it does, what it is. Robin's song is Robin; it's his nature, just as much as his feathers and (even) his perch are. Just by doing, by singing his/her own unique song, he's available for others to see as an example, and be encouraged by his Be-ing to express what it is their own souls are calling for them to express. The colour of the dawn is on his chest. The colour of the dawn is the colour of the new self that is You, constantly being (re)born, calling you to Be. Creative expression is you. The new dawn, the sun and its power, the New Self, is you!

Although I wasn't looking directly at him, I could tell how moved he was (I certainly was), and I could tell, as well, how moved his friends were by what had transpired.

While the boy might have been coerced(?) into his actions out of a sense of bravado, the rewards were great. Not only was he himself inspired, but his friends were undoubtably inspired as well; and what's more important to a teenager than his/her friends? It's the early bird - getting past the idea of what a worm looks like (read as: being hampered by feelings of insignificance, playing small) - that receives the nourishment. I believe that, if any of us refuses to express the creative Truth that we are, we'll be presented with an opportunity, one way or another. Being 'inspired' to go out busking, forced me past my own reservations about looking the Fool, for instance. As I can wholeheartedly attest to, you won't be disappointed that you did; they feel like butterflies, and they do come out that way, too!

I'm always very appreciative when I get to thank someone for sharing their medicine with me, but this exchange hit a particularly high note!

Big Medicine Love to You!!

~ Black Feather


(As ever, if you feel that you'd like some help expressing your own Truth, I'd be more than delighted to share medicine with You!)

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How to DreamSurf

I‘ve got a couple of treats for you. One is a great technique that I came up with to facilitate lucid dreaming (realizing you‘re dreaming while you‘re in a dream). The other is a PowerDream. I was listening (and called in) to an interview on the Awakening Zone with Robert Moss (that was amazing, by the way!) during which Robert mentioned the aboriginal/shamanic practice of ‘dream-giving’, telling a dream in such a way that the receiver is given power by owning the dream themselves. I had a dream that same night that really fits, and I’d Love to share with you.
But first, my non-fail technique - after using it, I wouldn’t be at all surprised if you find yourself lucid dreaming the first time out! (I’d say I’m really proud of the fact that I came up with this my ‘self ‘, but I appreciate that every great inspiration is a result of being a good channel). What I recommend is this:

First, think about what you dream about most often (or ‘a lot’, at least). This (item/action/person?) will act as your ‘cue’; it’ll be what wakes you up to the fact that you’re dreaming while (for example) the Pope is toasting marshmallows over a campfire for you. Next, grab yourself some sticky-notes, and write “Am I Dreaming?” on them. Now, go around your waking lifespace and stick those notes on images/pictures of the ‘cue‘ item that you picked (for people who may be more ‘literal’ than visual, you might want to stick your notes on text) . For instance, my wife’s sister shows up in her dreams most often, so she’d go around sticking her notes on letters from her sister, or on (family) photos with her in them. For me, it’s water, so I might put mine of a magazine cover I have laying around, on drawings I’ve done that include water in them, or on my drinking glass. Get creative with it (not that it’s necessary for the exercise, I’d just be thrilled that you did)! Put an image of your dream cue on your desktop and post a virtual “Am I Dreaming” sticky on that!

For some of you, it might take a few days for this to result in full dream awareness, but don‘t worry if it does; you will get what you need out of the process! I will say, though, that when you do, Please, re-cycle the karma by sharing your dream/experience with me!

blackfeathermedicine@yahoo.ca

I trust you to stay open-minded about what I’m going to say next - as Kelly says herself in the interview, I Love nightmares. If I’m having one, I know I’m ripe for something really, really great to follow it. I see them as a precursor to a rebirth, to another ascension stage on my personal journey (and who doesn‘t love the gifts that come with that?). What I find lucid dreaming most helpful for is resolving nightmares. And, now that I‘ve said that, I’ve got yet another great treat for you, and I have a feeling it’s going to be the best one for You, personally…

Robert mentioned a few things in the interview about what you can do to resolve nightmares, but - unless you’re really practiced or have a shaman or dream practitioner coaching you - they can be hard to remember while you’re being chased or _ _ _ _ (I’ll leave it up to you to fill in the blank - I’m pretty sure you don’t need me to give you a nightmare suggestion)! The tip I’m going to give you will empower you to do something about what’s happening while you’re in your nightmare (to get the Pope to stop burning your mallows, for instance). If you’re having nightmares lately, make your cue something related to that. Then, once you’re aware that you’re in a dream that’s a nightmare, start saying “I Love You” to whatever (situation) it is that’s troubling you (or to whatever‘s chasing you). I’m getting confirmations all over my body that you’re going to be extremely happy with how will this works!

Now for the other treat I was talking about: sharing a PowerDream. I highly recommend that, once you finish reading this version of the dream I had (once you get to the *), you continue the dream-story by carrying on the visualization to see what happens next, or by simply paying attention to what happens afterwards in your lifedream as a result of hearing/seeing/owning this dream…


“SurfDream”

You’re in Australia, headed down to the water/beach with a young, blonde-haired man. He’s there to help you - he’s really experienced at surfing. There are lots of white barnacles on the way down the beach’s sandy slope. You’re both making your way over them in flip-flops, but while they seem sharp to you and you go slowly, gingerly, you notice that your guide is moving over them very quickly. You realize watching him that you don’t have to worry about being so careful and you go fast over them, too (and you’re fine)! Standing at the shore, you see other people with their boards having Great fun in the water. Your guide points out that this is the perfect place for you. Even as a beginner, it’s obvious to you that it has the most awesome beginner waves, and you start heading out to find your very own ‘sweet spot’.

To your surprise, rather than paddling out, you’re actually standing, riding your board, moving it forward by pumping your weight up and down on it. You have a couple of things in your arms, but it doesn’t seem to matter; before you know it, you’ve moved over the incoming waves and you‘re sitting on your board out in deeper water, with guides as good as your friend floating all around you. They’re really excited! You’ve taught them a new trick - they all got out by paddling with their arms as they laid on their bellies! One of the items you’ve been holding is a long, grey ‘foamy/floatie‘, about two centimetres in diameter and as tall as your self. It doesn’t seem to ‘do’ anything, and you wonder why you’ve even been carrying it. You might be a little nervous as you wait for your first wave, but you realize that doesn’t make sense, since you’d actually ‘surfed’ out the way that you did, which should have been far more difficult! *


Please let me know how this dream continues for you, especially as it continues in your LifeDream!

blackfeathermedicine@gmail.com


I have to say that I really debated whether to include the part about carrying the ‘stuff ‘ in my telling of that dream, but my guidance seemed to be suggesting I leave it in. We don’t incarnate into these earthly forms to be baggage-free; part of the ‘fun‘ of our experience is to overcome our challenges! I can well imagine for some of you that something interesting happened with it during your ride, but - for those of you who found it problematic - I’d be more than delighted to help you relieve yourself of whatever it is that you’re carrying, to help you drop your stuff. It got you to where you are, but you’ll be able to enjoy your (next) wave much, much more without it!

Opening to Abundance: I Heard the Word "Chocolate"

I listened in on a webinar a while back during which I had the opportunity to participate in a divine guidance meditation for connecting to your higher self. Being more clairvoyant than clairaudient, I was a little skeptical as to whether the format would work for me or not, but I committed to giving it a try. For my first go-round, I asked my higher self to help me with what I could do to bring some immediate financial abundance into my life, and heard the word “chocolate” (clearly, I might add). Now - as much as most people’s eyes go all spinny and they scramble to catch their drool over the mention of the word - I have to say that I’m not much of a fan of the stuff (I know… sacrilege!). I thought, “What the (*!) does that even mean?” The only reference that came to mind was of a friend of mine I’d met recently who was part-owner of a make-it-yourself chocolate business. I wondered, “Is my higher self telling me that I’m to sell chocolate?”

I figured that, since I’d come this far, I might as well follow this through at least a little further, so I picked up the phone. It turned out that my friend had just that minute been talking to his (new) flatmate’s mom about a healing that I‘d facilitated, and she had just been saying that she’d been thinking about getting one herself, but had hesitated because she was a little nervous about it. After a few short words on the phone to me, my friend thrust the phone at her - no time for nervous thoughts there! I did a healing on her the next day. I couldn’t believe how quickly acting on the message from my higher self had manifested a result, and that the answer to my request involved doing what I Love and helping someone out in the process!!

I had a few other interesting experiences with this, including these next two: one of the meditations presented me with the word “celery”, the other, “watermelon”. I thought that perhaps I was supposed to look up the symbolism of each or something, but I couldn’t think (operative word, there) of how they related, so I didn’t act on them. After that, it seemed that nothing very interesting was happening, and I let the practice go for a while. A couple of days ago, though, I tried another one. This time, I thought I heard the word “de-os”. For most of you, you’re probably thinking what I was thinking, and what I was thinking led me to thinking that I would for sure not be bothering with these meditations again!

FForward a little… For almost two weeks lately, I’d been feeling grumpy. I so wanted to be able to say that ‘grumpy’ didn’t describe me any more, and it hasn‘t, for years now, but there. it. was. I do realize that it’s a symptom of inner resistance. The way I tried to look at it (and who can do that in the moment anyway?) is that, “If I’m ‘this’ grumpy - it must be something really juicy that I’m about to let go of!”

I pulled some animal medicine cards for guidance. They gave me the message that I was blocked by some early subconscious programming related to money/‘work’ beliefs, and that I needed to teach my inner child to have faith that life could be fun again (no kidding?). Then I asked for a suggestion on my next best option for ‘what to do’, and Raven came up - upside down, that is. Raven is primarily about magic. The card - being contrary - suggested that I’d forgotten the magic of life. To right the medicine, the suggestion was that I journey and ask Raven to help me find the magic again. Raven would help me clear my energetic blocks and teach me the proper way of using energy and grounding it so that I could use it to manifest results effectively.

With gratitude, I opened my circle. As soon as I heard the drum beats, I found myself being flown on the back of a bird really, reaaally fast. Down, down, Down I went, with The Chief at my side, saying something into my ear like, “You’re going so fast, you don’t even know where you’re going, do you?!” We went to the grey-black core of the Earth. I can’t imagine a better place for grounding energy!

Immediately afterward my journey, I happened to open an email that led me to a recording of another webinar put on by the same people who’d offered up the HSM. The theme was “Deliberate Prosperity”. A lot of it was about how to successfully apply law of attraction principles, especially about the value of emotions rather than (un-guided) action as tools to manifesting abundance. A lot of what was expressed really clicked with me; I’ve always been a huge proponent of the essential nature of our emotions as a conveyance for moving us forward on our lifedream’s path. I’d listened and read about law of attraction talks before, but my ears especially perked up for this one. At the outset of their presentation, as Eva and Jeanna gave a brief bio and overview of themselves and their business, they mentioned that their venture became “a [venture] On Steroids” when Eva introduced her non-physical guides into it. When I heard Jeanna say the name of Eva’s guides, I could swear I heard her say “de-os” (although when Eva mentioned it just after that, it was “Theos”).

My head started spinning. If it weren’t for the fact that I was sitting down, I’m sure I would’ve reached out for something to steady myself. I’d asked to be reminded of the magic in my life, and there it was!

I’d love to write more about how blown away I was (and about what happened next), but I’m going out to get some watermelon, if for no other reason than just because my inner children would enjoy it (and maybe even some celery; I think I remember enjoying it with peanut butter when I was a kid)!

Big Medicine Love to You!
~ Black Feather

If you'd like to know more about Eva and Jeanna, visit them at Abundance Abounds, and if you're inspired to sign up for one of their programs, I'd appreciate you mentioning where you heard of them - nothing better than spreading the Love around! Mwuhh!!

"taking aim with more power than physicality can achieve"

(The title and) what follows is a literal transcription/translation of some of the imagery that I continually receive as a visual stream. I subtituted each symbol I was shown with a corresponding reference/description; taken together, they read as a channeling. While I recognize how valuable this particular message is to my own personal healing journey, I’m posting it for the assistance it might provide as concerns your own self-empowerment. For those who are interested, I’ve included a description of the images that I worked from at the end of the post. For help with transcribing your own visuals (be they clairvoyant images, or dream symbolism), I highly recommend Kelly Sullivan-Walden’s book, “I Had The Strangest Dream: The Dreamer’s Dictionary for the 21^st Century”

higher wisdom, nobility, beauty, self-esteem, authority, prominence…
the best is yet to come

Christ consciousness directs you to divine will,
to where change, blessings and creative inspiration are coming from,
to the creative element, to going with the flow,
to unconscious wisdom you have yet to understand

are you gasping for (air? water?) feeling out of your element?

you’re being pulled, energetically,
not by what you see in front of you,
not from where it is that you’re looking,
but by the creative energy that weaves life

hidden is your true expansiveness,
your intimate connection to the Void,
a permeable door revealing the mystery
of what you’ve been
protecting(?)… your true self, thoughts and beliefs
because of a preoccupation with looking to the masculine

fall into yourself…

fall into
wealth, gold, riches
rewards for your hard work
fall into the graceful, vulnerable and flowing part of you that
dances with the winds of change

fall into
abundance, money,
being taken care of, protected,
shade from the sun,
cover from the rain,
the outer expression of your inner work,
clarity, vision, insight,
afforded by your connection to the Goddess (within)

assistance is yours for the asking;
tap into your own healing abilities,
your higher guidance,
to the realization that you’re loved, adored,
and always guided

cleanse and heal your negative thoughts or behaviours
bring yourself back into balance
pluck out negative/unsupportive thoughts, energies

let your inner girl child talk to you,
she’s a part of you that you’ve been closed to, covering,
yet you’re intimate with
let her speak with you,
as is her desire
so that you can fulfill your (buried?) desire to be intimate with others

connect with lightness of being,
with the wisdom of a higher view,
connection to a higher source

…to love, overseeing/lifting/raising healing the energy of the earth,
becoming/bringing riches and honour, romance and prosperity,
wealth, feminine beauty, healing power

bringing into being celebration,
happy times,
foretelling success

the dark energies below then seen as merely
a reflecting surface for higher communications

‘Big Words’, ‘running‘,
motivated, exuberant, passionate, excited,
prepared for the challenge/opportunity at hand,
leaving behind feelings of insecurity and inadequacy,
realizing the position, status, self-perception,
life circumstances that you previously imagined as
‘other’s shoes’

there is change in the air, in perspective

towards a balance between masculine and feminine energies,
towards a willingness to help out and do (even more than) your share,
but no longer taking on / carrying the burdens of others
the appearance of these previous exertions now seem silly, comical even

with this newfound balance,
comes intuition, angels, creativity,
the freedom of expressing your True feelings,
harmony with the universe and your soul

when you think of yourself in black and white,
you can‘t see anything for the effort of belting out your song

realize ‘softer’ thoughts

open your eyes
see beneath the surface of your personality,
into your most intimate being-ness, your esoteric knowing
read between the lines of what you’ve come to understand as your ‘self ‘
to access your angelic tools

you are a link to solutions for your brothers and sisters,
for the earth,
breathing the nourishment that is joy and laughter,
through playfulness and healing,
by your link to Great Spirit,
you carry the capacity to see negativity transmuted into joy
this is what holds your vision together

you, as your angelic self,
carrying the outward expression of your femininty,
vulnerability, softness, sensuality
these are the qualities that cleanse, that shine, that polish

the personality that’s been communicated to you
has helped you build,
has taught you,
has facilitated your healing,
(but) now you realize you’re spinning,
and it’s time to reevaluate where you expend your energy
it’s time to move forward
it’s time to reveal the calmness, strength and dignity
that you’ve been stifling,
that you’ve kept yourself from communicating

…time for major healing, transformation, ‘repair’
…healing emotional wounds, mending relationships
…changing how you communicate who/what you are


What follows is a functional description of the images I was channeled
that led to the message above:

crossbow, arched

crown? weathervane on top of/through a fish,

gasping,

splintering?…

…pulled by the energetic strands of a spider

facial hair like an octopus-man; underneath is a dark interior screen door

a reveal

gas mask on a head, with glasses looking to the side (our left, head‘s right)

water drop

corn (with leaves), falling

eyes among the curled-down leaves

angel / spot of light

frog, limbs splayed out (dead) on tweezers?

eyes swirling, buttons, phone - (screw-on) mouthpiece

feather

rose? lifting frog from earth, flame/corona flower opening… peony

champagne bottle, teeth/gums talking

top teeth/gums reflection on shiny dark surface below it

big teeth like shoes, running (different shoes)

(electric) fan

hippo/donkey, with cheeks puffed

bird tweeting

eyes narrowed/closed? ,soft feathers on head - young

black and white stripes across head

tweeting, singing

eye opening slightly, then goggles and big bill, aviator goggles

dolphins across goggles,

holding angel with poofed(?) dress in beak

dress as polisher

figure large/bulk, beaver/wolf head, (animal, healing) cone, two rat-like teeth

spinning

stag with muzzle?/surgical mask


Big Medicine Love to You

~ Black Feather

Dragonfly Medicine: we Are our future selves

I had an experience that I would describe as ‘an energy coming in’. In a meditation I had as I sat at a lakeside garden (where there‘s an energetic portal, by the way), I saw a huge dragonfly nymph that was also a frog (at its head), crawling ever so slowly out of the water. I have to admit that I was a little freaked out by it at first. Dragonfly nymphs gave me the ‘heebie jeebies’ as a child - they covered the front (lakeside) of our house every spring. The fact that the image frightened me suggested that it was somehow related to my own power, that it was a(n unrealized) part of my self somehow. Since I believe that we’re not presented with anything we’re not ready for (spiritually, at least), and since it’s what I’d suggest if I was working with someone else (Ha!), I opened myself to its medicine…

Dragonfly nymphs are extremely voracious, and frogs are about cleansing (negative energies in particular). Put together, it suggests an entity that voraciously consumes negative energies for growth and transformation.

I believe that at this time, we’re on the earth plane to transform negative energies. To this point, they’ve helped us to grow (as nymphs, as it were), fed us to accommodate our transformation, even, but now it’s time to be aware of our capacity to utilize Frog’s cleansing medicines to clear up our illusions, to come to know the beauty of our true selves. As is reflected in nature (which is ‘us‘, by the way), this is something natural to us, something we’re built for.

Dragonfly medicine is about illusion (primarily). In this case, the illusion is in our perceptions, telling us that something is ‘ugly’ to begin with, something to be scared of. When is Dragonfly beautiful, and when is it ugly? Is it only beautiful when we see the shimmer of its wings? We are as beautiful as what we are becoming. We are our future selves.

What I describe next is (a condensed version of) how this new energy manifested in my immediate experience (I’d love to hear about yours, by the way)…

Two days after receiving that vision, I was guided to do a distance healing on someone who had a fear of flying. ’Isabelle’ had been offered an outstanding work opportunity, and was considering how/whether she’d cope with going overseas, as would be a requirement of her acceptance. We thought it might be helpful to others to describe her healing experience...

As I began to scan her, for the first time since I started my healing mission, I felt a very ‘cold’ energy. I was a little confused at first (in my experience, the best place to be). I was shown to feel above her heart, and saw a long, golden bug down the middle of her chest (in hindsight, like a really large dragonfly nymph). The coldness increased, and moved down her body. I wondered how many lifetimes ago this (’?’) had manifested for her. Without letting her on to what it was that I was questioning, I said, “I’m going to ask you a question. Tell me what comes first to your mind. How long has this been with you?”

“Nine!” she exclaimed, surprised by her reaction.

“Where are you? How do you feel?”

“I’m really scared! Someone (?) is chasing me.”

“I’m going to tell you that, even though who or what’s chasing you might seem aggressive and maybe more powerful than you, (it’s) chasing you out of its own fear.”

“I’m laying on the ground.”

I told her about an image I was given then… a (fifteen) year old girl, with reddish, matted hair (curiously, more like the thinning hair that an old woman would have), laying facedown on what looked like the outline of dragonfly wings.

I understood that this was a previous incarnation of her self, and that she was experiencing herself as though she’d already passed on (though Isabelle wasn’t necessarily conscious of it).

“Who do you want to come for you? Who do you most want to see?”

“My dad!”

At that moment, ‘The Chief ‘ came in…

“Daughter!… I’m right above you. I know you can see me. I just look like something scary to you… like a bug! Don’t be afraid. You’re just like me… you are me!”

I saw an image of a large dragonfly holding a smaller one underneath its belly…

“You have no idea how fast you are. You have no idea how powerful you are! Let me pick you up and fly with you. You can fly, but you don’t have to. I’ll hold you underneath me as I fly until you’re not scared anymore, and you’re ready to fly on your own. I love you so much! I would wait for you here for ever! Just reach up (to me).”

I could tell that the thought of ‘flying’ had snapped Isabelle back into (the illusion of) her present fears.

“No. I’m scared!”

…

“How about a hop?! A hop isn’t even flying! It’s where you feel the ground, and then you ‘play‘, and then you feel the ground again… Whumpp!!” …?

…

“How about a swim, then? I know how much you love(d) to swim!”

…

…”No.”

…

At this point, I was thinking to myself that, short of fire, there was only one element left. The Chief continued…

“How about digging? We’ll go under the ground! You’re surrounded on all sides there!” …?

…

“(In a little voice) Ok.”

“I’ll race you!” (The Chief likes to go fast.)

…

“Where are you, daughter? I can’t see you down here. All I see is black.”

“I’m in a hole.”

“Huh! …And what do you see when you look up?”

“I see light up there, at the top of the hole.”

“Hmmm… that’s a problem for you, isn’t it? How are you going to… “

“I’m out.”

“Wa-chay! That was fast! How did you get out already?”

“I flew.”

“(Teasingly…) You flew!?… Wa-chayy, you are fast!”

“Where are you now?”

“I’m back on the ground, looking up at the sky; I can see trees at the edges.”

“Will you fly with me now?”

“No. I’m still scared.”

…

“Ask the trees to make a hole for you, like when you were in the ground. They know you’re there. They’ll protect you, make you feel safe. They’ll surround you on all sides. Then you can fly, just like you just did. That’s how easy it is!”

“No.”

As I was scanning her body, I noticed that the cold (spot) was smaller, but still near her heart.

“Who else do you want to see?”

“My sister.”

“Where is your sister?”

“She drowned.”

…

“(Really upset…) I was supposed to be watching her!”

I also felt a cold spot in the left side of Isabelle’s belly. She continued…

“My aunt (/mother?) was really mad.”

[It got a little confusing here, because although she was referring to the drowned girl as ‘sister‘, we were given cues that she’d actually been her cousin to begin with. As her present incarnation, Isabelle was also confused when she talked about her aunt of that life. She couldn’t decide if the woman was ‘aunt’, or ‘mother’. We surmised that perhaps her own mother had died, or that it might’ve been customary in the society she was in at the time to take care of children communally.]

We came to understand that her ‘aunt’ was the one who had been chasing her. She must have caught her at some point, because she was the reason why Isabelle had ended up dead in the forest.

“Why did your sister choose to die that way, by drowning? She chose, you know.“

…

“Your heart knows. Your heart’s powerful enough to tell you that.”

…

“Because she was being beaten.”

…

“Your aunt was trying to blame you because of her own pain, because of her own fears about her pain catching up to her. That‘s why you were being chased. Do you see that? What does your heart say?”

“Yes.”

I’m going to give you some background to help you understand a little of what happened next. My twin-flame, Jenny, had only recently met Isabelle, but for the short time they’d known each other, they’d both been aware of an incredibly strong connection between them. Through the personal healing journey that Jenny and I have experienced together, I (also) know her as a ‘Water-Talker’. She was present for this particular session (she’s an exceptional healer herself), working on Isabelle’s physical body, and offering me confirmations and guiding words when they came to her. As ‘David’, I had a pretty good idea where this was going myself, and then The Chief nudged me…

“Do you want to talk to your sister?”

The Chief continued in a whisper, “Water-Talker, tell your sister what you have to say.”

“I’m ok, sister. I love you. I forgive you…. It’s ok.”

…

“Thank you.”

…

“I want to go swimming now.”

We went to the water (I imagined it was where her sister/cousin had drowned).

The Chief piped in again, “If you see a Beaver, you chase him! Noone swims faster than my Otter Daughter!”

“Slappp!!” The Chief had me clap my hands together loudly, like a Beaver’s tail on the water (trying to make his getaway).

…

“Where are you? You swim sooo fast; I can’t even see you!”

“I’m flying.”

“(Knowingly, teasingly…) You’re flying?”

I could ‘feel’ The Chief winking. I Love his sense of humour.

“I was swimming, but now I’m in the air, flying.”

“Huhh!”

“How about that. ‘Flying’, you say.”

(Again…) “Huhh!”

“And there’s no ground, or trees around you or nothing?”

“I’m just flying.”

“Huhh! Imagine that!”

I asked her to tell me what she saw, now that she was flying. Isabelle described clouds, and then looked down and saw her body on the ground. I asked her how she felt about the young girl she saw lying there. The Chief’s words - as her ‘Father’ - came to us. “With the Love you have for her, you would wait for her forever, wouldn’t you?“ From her new perspective, she realized that it had been her own, angelic self (played out by The Chief) that she’d been afraid of. She understood now that she’d had no need to be scared. Her fear of flying had been a fear of letting go, letting go of guilt, of sorrow, of fear itself. She’d been frightened of becoming the self that she already was (in a different form), herself as her own Dragonfly power. She is Isabelle and ‘sister’, while - in the same instant - she is her Father, and she’s her Mother (Earth), as much as we all are, One.

Namasté

Big Medicine Love to You!

~ Black Feather

Photo Credit: Aitor Escauriaza

Lynx Medicine: Revealing Secrets

My wife has the power of Lynx medicine, and I’m really glad she does. There’s no point in trying to hide anything from her, because - in effect - I’m just trying to hide it from myself, trying to keep something under insulation. It begs the question, “Who am I trying to snow, anyway?”

Lynx medicine is about knowing people’s secrets, but - Lynx being so silent - not necessarily revealing them. It’s most effective if the person with the secret reveals it themselves. People with Lynx medicine have an uncanny knack for getting people to do just that. Imagine Rabbit under the snow. It’s hidden, it’s ‘secret’, but it hears Lynx coming. It waits and waits, imagining that Lynx will find it. Pretty soon, it can’t take it anymore, and it bolts. The fear of keeping a secret can be far greater than the fear of revealing it.

Jenny came into the room. She’d been guided to ask me, “Where do you want to be?” and “Who do you want to be with?” She said that she wasn’t sure why she was asking those specific questions, but that the word ‘uncertainty’ was connected in some way.

Now, in the last few years at least, I’d been really good at manifesting the big picture, Love, but the day-to-day stuff, not so much. Our conversation included why it was that whenever we were together, our ability to manifest financial abundance went down the tubes. Whenever we spend time physically apart, we manage to have more than enough, but put us together, and we end up exhausting our resources until we’re scrambling to make ends meet. Hmmm…

As we were talking, a vision of a past life that I’d investigated months before came to me. At that moment, Jenny was asking me why I was avoiding her gaze. As much as I tried to come up with any other reason (read: ‘untruth’), her keen instincts were patiently watching for Rabbit (~ fear). She sensed that there was somewhere that I was afraid of going (by the way, the upside of Rabbit medicine is that it’s incredibly ‘productive’). My belly was not comfortable. I was not comfortable. I thought about what I’d normally suggest to someone at this point when they were in a healing session with me: ‘lean into it‘. I started to tell Jenny the story of this particular past life.

My original question/reason for my journey was, in fact, “Why do I have so much trouble manifesting financial abundance?” I thought that I’d resolved everything in it, but - as I mentioned - it seems that I’d resolved it for only half the time, the half when I was not around Jenny. I’d accessed it in a drum journey/meditation. It went something like this:

I asked my guides to take me where I needed to go. Once I’d gotten ‘settled’, I looked down towards my legs. That usually gives me an idea of who I am. I saw that I was walking briskly down a reddish-brown, dirt road. I had my ‘business’ shoes and pants on. I asked myself a question about where I was going, and was presented with, “To kick a poor black family out of their home.” I had the distinct impression that this was not the only family I’d done this to. I was incredulous. I thought, “How could I do such a thing? What would drive me to do such an ugly, heinous thing?”

I was guided to look five years back. My wife had died. I’d loved her intensely. I saw cotton, a mansion, and harvested fields. I’d been the son of a wealthy plantation family. I was the heir; I’d wanted for nothing. My wife (Jenny in this life) had died, but instead of allowing myself to feel the pain of it, I got mean. I exerted my rage on the people who were beholden to me, ‘beneath’ me. The harvest was done, and I was turfing them. I didn’t need them any more. Although it had been a good harvest this particular year, I’d made it so that they were indebted to me financially. I hid behind the fact that I had ‘legal recourse‘, in order to vent my rage.

Just then, I saw an image of an angelic ‘little brown boy’. Even though he and his family were getting kicked out of their home with nothing, his spirit was not diminished. He was an inspiration to everyone around him. Again, I say, ‘angelic‘. Something about the boy awakened me to what I was doing. He was unaffected by my rage; it wasn’t having any affect on him. He even had love for me! As ‘small’ as he was, I realized how truly weak I was in comparison. All my money, all my aggression meant nothing. I felt my pain all at once. I crashed, plummeted. I took my own life. I saw what I’d seen then as I was falling from a cliff towards rocks and frothy water: my wife’s arms, in spirit, reaching out to welcome me.

As I was recounting this to a good friend at the time, he said, “You know, I’ve never told anyone this because it seemed like such a silly thing to say, but since I was young - and especially now that I’m so big (tall) - I’ve always thought, But I’m a little brown boy. What am I doing in this huge, white body?” I was stunned. I just stared at him. As is his way, he immediately added, “ I forgive you!” (Is it any wonder why I Love that man as much as I do?)

It seemed pretty obvious, then, why it was that I would have kept myself from having money in this life. I didn’t trust myself not to abuse it. And I thought that - with my friend’s forgiveness and the other work I’d done on myself since - it’d been resolved. I know myself much better now. I’ve come here to love, and I’m well able to express that when I have money. But as I said, I’ve only been able to manifest it when Jenny and I have not been together (at one point, we’d lived separately for six months until I made/saved enough to join her).

Jenny asked me what I was feeling. I had to admit to myself that there was something to the fact that I couldn’t look at her as I spoke. I hesitated for the longest time, but finally said, “I’m mad at you, but I don’t understand why.“ Anger represents other emotions that have been pushed down (‘under the snow‘). Thankfully, Jenny knows just how far to push me. She replied to me with, “You’re mad at me because I left you.“ I tried to tell her that I thought that was ridiculous. Then she asked me to look into her beautiful green eyes, and she just sat watching me, silently, patiently… and then, Rabbit bolted. With tears streaming down my cheeks, I exclaimed, “When I have money, Love goes away! YOU go AWAY! I don’t want you to leave me again!”

I thought, “Where did that come from? I don’t even know what that means.” When I could manage it, we loosed our embrace and talked it over.

I’d been able to forgive myself for how I’d hurt the families and the boy I’d tried to vent on. I hadn’t forgiven (Jenny) for leaving me, and I’d associated us being together and having money as leading to not only her eventual absence (and my misery), but the appearance of a side of myself I couldn‘t stomach, and eventually, my own death. It didn’t matter that I had an awareness that, in spirit, we plan the lessons/experiences we need for ourselves; I’d still held the emotional reality of my experience in the physical memory of my body.

I have my emotions to thank for getting me here. I have the shadow of Rabbit (awareness of my fears) to thank for getting me here. And I have my beautiful, green-eyed, Lynx-medicine twin flame to thank for getting me here.

Big Medicine Love to You
~ Black Feather

I am not your teacher. Your heart called me here to remind you that you are your teacher.