Conversely,
at a time when I was heavy into a lucid dreaming practice, I sought
out and dreamt winning lottery numbers. But (unfortunately?), I only
dreamt
that I'd woken up to write them down. After eventually waking (for
'real'), I played the three numbers I knew for sure, as well as as
many variations of what I thought I'd seen of the rest (and that I
could ostensibly afford). Checking the official results after the
draw date, I recognized in hindsight that the winning numbers were
in fact the ones I'd originally dreamt. Go figure.
So,
(after the expletives took flight,) did I loose /gain any Insights
from those experiences?...
With my
beachcombing, for instance, I let go of some outmoded ideals I had
about humility and 'value'. While in the moment I interpreted what I
was doing as humiliating, that self-judgement wasn't necessary. If
someone were doing the same activity but had a truck with a
professional-looking sign on it, was picking up cans wearing a
reflective vest, a hardhat, and demonstrating a kicky,
entrepreneurial attitude, I'd have viewed them totally differently
than I was viewing myself (the admirable, 'smart', vs. the
self-deprecating, 'loser', for
the very same activity). It
was a great lesson in how to Receive without self-criticism or
judgement.
Regardless
of how life's conditions appear, I have no doubt whatsoever that
financial abundance is at our fingertips any time we Divinely choose,
and /but I also
have an appreciation for the idea that the experience I'm having is
providing Exactly what I Need. While I have every confidence that I
can manifest winning lottery numbers again using the same method, I
haven't since felt motivated to. It's not a path I'm Choosing in this
incarnation.
I
ask myself the question, “what's more valuable to my soul's growth,
cash in hand, or insight into how I'm sabotaging my own sense of
value”? Not that it's an either-or question (and if monetary
abundance is your journey, kudos to you), but I consider the release
of the karma I'd built up around this immeasurably
valuable. After all, why did
I only dream
that I woke up and wrote the numbers down? I'm only realizing as I
write this that I can be sure it was not
an accident. I figure that the lesson I got out of all of this is
kind of like 'teaching a soul to fish'; money, I (hope I) would spend
and it'd be gone, but this is a Gift that keeps on Giving.
I also
learned not to force anything (and, no, it hasn't
escaped me that prematurely quitting a good paying job to do what it
is I'm 'really' here to do might have been a tad forced;). Some
brilliant person since gave me the advice that if I'm in a situation
that I'm feeling considerable resistance to, 'go limp'. That doesn't
mean to be flaccid and not 'do' anything; by all means, do whatever
you're Divinely guided to do (I personally received no less than 3
unmistakable
signs suggesting I apply for a job in my previous line of work). What
I mean is, if you find you're having an experience that your mind
doesn't prefer or – at its extreme – is traumatic, go loose. Hey,
you're more likely to survive a car
accident that way – 'go limp' at your
(work). Consider that the karma you're clearing is opening things up
for you on your
Direct path.
Regardless
of the apparently haphazard decisions I made, I was and Am on the
proverb-ial fast track, and everything is in proper balance,
karmically speaking. As much as it seemed mine might not have been
the most sensible
route to take, Spirit's overview provided me with The most direct
route. For myself, that wouldn't have been better facilitated by
loads of cash.
As to
how this all relates to what I'm 'really' here to do, well, I'm doing
it. I was 'there', and now I'm 'here'. My dream was to work as /be a
psychic illustrator and healer, to receive requests both for my services and to teach,
and – as part-and-parcel – to be provided for. It was a Dream
then, and it's my Life now. Then as now, it was as 'real' a part of
my lifedream as what I'm experiencing at present. It was just a
little challenging to recognize the value in it.
Wishing
you Love, Light, Luck, Lucidity and Laughter
David
'Black Feather' Nagy is among other things a healer and psychic
illustrator who believes that the best insurance against not
living your dreams is living your Life. Your
lifedream is the Biggest and most valuable Dream there is. Big
Medicine Love to YOU
