I listened in on a webinar a while back during which I had the opportunity to participate in a divine guidance meditation for connecting to your higher self. Being more clairvoyant than clairaudient, I was a little skeptical as to whether the format would work for me or not, but I committed to giving it a try. For my first go-round, I asked my higher self to help me with what I could do to bring some immediate financial abundance into my life, and heard the word “chocolate” (clearly, I might add). Now - as much as most people’s eyes go all spinny and they scramble to catch their drool over the mention of the word - I have to say that I’m not much of a fan of the stuff (I know… sacrilege!). I thought, “What the (*!) does that even mean?” The only reference that came to mind was of a friend of mine I’d met recently who was part-owner of a make-it-yourself chocolate business. I wondered, “Is my higher self telling me that I’m to sell chocolate?”
I figured that, since I’d come this far, I might as well follow this through at least a little further, so I picked up the phone. It turned out that my friend had just that minute been talking to his (new) flatmate’s mom about a healing that I‘d facilitated, and she had just been saying that she’d been thinking about getting one herself, but had hesitated because she was a little nervous about it. After a few short words on the phone to me, my friend thrust the phone at her - no time for nervous thoughts there! I did a healing on her the next day. I couldn’t believe how quickly acting on the message from my higher self had manifested a result, and that the answer to my request involved doing what I Love and helping someone out in the process!!
I had a few other interesting experiences with this, including these next two: one of the meditations presented me with the word “celery”, the other, “watermelon”. I thought that perhaps I was supposed to look up the symbolism of each or something, but I couldn’t think (operative word, there) of how they related, so I didn’t act on them. After that, it seemed that nothing very interesting was happening, and I let the practice go for a while. A couple of days ago, though, I tried another one. This time, I thought I heard the word “de-os”. For most of you, you’re probably thinking what I was thinking, and what I was thinking led me to thinking that I would for sure not be bothering with these meditations again!
FForward a little… For almost two weeks lately, I’d been feeling grumpy. I so wanted to be able to say that ‘grumpy’ didn’t describe me any more, and it hasn‘t, for years now, but there. it. was. I do realize that it’s a symptom of inner resistance. The way I tried to look at it (and who can do that in the moment anyway?) is that, “If I’m ‘this’ grumpy - it must be something really juicy that I’m about to let go of!”
I pulled some animal medicine cards for guidance. They gave me the message that I was blocked by some early subconscious programming related to money/‘work’ beliefs, and that I needed to teach my inner child to have faith that life could be fun again (no kidding?). Then I asked for a suggestion on my next best option for ‘what to do’, and Raven came up - upside down, that is. Raven is primarily about magic. The card - being contrary - suggested that I’d forgotten the magic of life. To right the medicine, the suggestion was that I journey and ask Raven to help me find the magic again. Raven would help me clear my energetic blocks and teach me the proper way of using energy and grounding it so that I could use it to manifest results effectively.
With gratitude, I opened my circle. As soon as I heard the drum beats, I found myself being flown on the back of a bird really, reaaally fast. Down, down, Down I went, with The Chief at my side, saying something into my ear like, “You’re going so fast, you don’t even know where you’re going, do you?!” We went to the grey-black core of the Earth. I can’t imagine a better place for grounding energy!
Immediately afterward my journey, I happened to open an email that led me to a recording of another webinar put on by the same people who’d offered up the HSM. The theme was “Deliberate Prosperity”. A lot of it was about how to successfully apply law of attraction principles, especially about the value of emotions rather than (un-guided) action as tools to manifesting abundance. A lot of what was expressed really clicked with me; I’ve always been a huge proponent of the essential nature of our emotions as a conveyance for moving us forward on our lifedream’s path. I’d listened and read about law of attraction talks before, but my ears especially perked up for this one. At the outset of their presentation, as Eva and Jeanna gave a brief bio and overview of themselves and their business, they mentioned that their venture became “a [venture] On Steroids” when Eva introduced her non-physical guides into it. When I heard Jeanna say the name of Eva’s guides, I could swear I heard her say “de-os” (although when Eva mentioned it just after that, it was “Theos”).
My head started spinning. If it weren’t for the fact that I was sitting down, I’m sure I would’ve reached out for something to steady myself. I’d asked to be reminded of the magic in my life, and there it was!
I’d love to write more about how blown away I was (and about what happened next), but I’m going out to get some watermelon, if for no other reason than just because my inner children would enjoy it (and maybe even some celery; I think I remember enjoying it with peanut butter when I was a kid)!
Big Medicine Love to You!
~ Black Feather
If you'd like to know more about Eva and Jeanna, visit them at Abundance Abounds, and if you're inspired to sign up for one of their programs, I'd appreciate you mentioning where you heard of them - nothing better than spreading the Love around! Mwuhh!!
(The title and) what follows is a literal transcription/translation of some of the imagery that I continually receive as a visual stream. I subtituted each symbol I was shown with a corresponding reference/description; taken together, they read as a channeling. While I recognize how valuable this particular message is to my own personal healing journey, I’m posting it for the assistance it might provide as concerns your own self-empowerment. For those who are interested, I’ve included a description of the images that I worked from at the end of the post. For help with transcribing your own visuals (be they clairvoyant images, or dream symbolism), I highly recommend Kelly Sullivan-Walden’s book, “I Had The Strangest Dream: The Dreamer’s Dictionary for the 21st Century”
higher wisdom, nobility, beauty, self-esteem, authority, prominence…
the best is yet to come
Christ consciousness directs you to divine will,
to where change, blessings and creative inspiration are coming from,
to the creative element, to going with the flow,
to unconscious wisdom you have yet to understand
are you gasping for (air? water?) feeling out of your element?
you’re being pulled, energetically,
not by what you see in front of you,
not from where it is that you’re looking,
but by the creative energy that weaves life
hidden is your true expansiveness,
your intimate connection to the Void,
a permeable door revealing the mystery
of what you’ve been
protecting(?)… your true self, thoughts and beliefs
because of a preoccupation with looking to the masculine
fall into yourself…
fall into
wealth, gold, riches
rewards for your hard work
fall into the graceful, vulnerable and flowing part of you that
dances with the winds of change
fall into
abundance, money,
being taken care of, protected,
shade from the sun,
cover from the rain,
the outer expression of your inner work,
clarity, vision, insight,
afforded by your connection to the Goddess (within)
assistance is yours for the asking;
tap into your own healing abilities,
your higher guidance,
to the realization that you’re loved, adored,
and always guided
cleanse and heal your negative thoughts or behaviours
bring yourself back into balance
pluck out negative/unsupportive thoughts, energies
let your inner girl child talk to you,
she’s a part of you that you’ve been closed to, covering,
yet you’re intimate with
let her speak with you,
as is her desire
so that you can fulfill your (buried?) desire to be intimate with others
connect with lightness of being,
with the wisdom of a higher view,
connection to a higher source
…to love, overseeing/lifting/raising healing the energy of the earth,
becoming/bringing riches and honour, romance and prosperity,
wealth, feminine beauty, healing power
bringing into being celebration,
happy times,
foretelling success
the dark energies below then seen as merely
a reflecting surface for higher communications
‘Big Words’, ‘running‘,
motivated, exuberant, passionate, excited,
prepared for the challenge/opportunity at hand,
leaving behind feelings of insecurity and inadequacy,
realizing the position, status, self-perception,
life circumstances that you previously imagined as
‘other’s shoes’
there is change in the air, in perspective
towards a balance between masculine and feminine energies,
towards a willingness to help out and do (even more than) your share,
but no longer taking on / carrying the burdens of others
the appearance of these previous exertions now seem silly, comical even
with this newfound balance,
comes intuition, angels, creativity,
the freedom of expressing your True feelings,
harmony with the universe and your soul
when you think of yourself in black and white,
you can‘t see anything for the effort of belting out your song
realize ‘softer’ thoughts
open your eyes
see beneath the surface of your personality,
into your most intimate being-ness, your esoteric knowing
read between the lines of what you’ve come to understand as your ‘self ‘
to access your angelic tools
you are a link to solutions for your brothers and sisters,
for the earth,
breathing the nourishment that is joy and laughter,
through playfulness and healing,
by your link to Great Spirit,
you carry the capacity to see negativity transmuted into joy
this is what holds your vision together
you, as your angelic self,
carrying the outward expression of your femininty,
vulnerability, softness, sensuality
these are the qualities that cleanse, that shine, that polish
the personality that’s been communicated to you
has helped you build,
has taught you,
has facilitated your healing,
(but) now you realize you’re spinning,
and it’s time to reevaluate where you expend your energy
it’s time to move forward
it’s time to reveal the calmness, strength and dignity
that you’ve been stifling,
that you’ve kept yourself from communicating
…time for major healing, transformation, ‘repair’
…healing emotional wounds, mending relationships
…changing how you communicate who/what you are
What follows is a functional description of the images I was channeled
that led to the message above:
crossbow, arched
crown? weathervane on top of/through a fish,
gasping,
splintering?…
…pulled by the energetic strands of a spider
facial hair like an octopus-man; underneath is a dark interior screen door
a reveal
gas mask on a head, with glasses looking to the side (our left, head‘s right)
water drop
corn (with leaves), falling
eyes among the curled-down leaves
angel / spot of light
frog, limbs splayed out (dead) on tweezers?
eyes swirling, buttons, phone - (screw-on) mouthpiece
feather
rose? lifting frog from earth, flame/corona flower opening… peony
champagne bottle, teeth/gums talking
top teeth/gums reflection on shiny dark surface below it
big teeth like shoes, running (different shoes)
(electric) fan
hippo/donkey, with cheeks puffed
bird tweeting
eyes narrowed/closed? ,soft feathers on head - young
black and white stripes across head
tweeting, singing
eye opening slightly, then goggles and big bill, aviator goggles
dolphins across goggles,
holding angel with poofed(?) dress in beak
dress as polisher
figure large/bulk, beaver/wolf head, (animal, healing) cone, two rat-like teeth
spinning
stag with muzzle?/surgical mask
Big Medicine Love to You
~ Black Feather
I had an experience that I would describe as ‘an energy coming in’. In a meditation I had as I sat at a lakeside garden (where there‘s an energetic portal, by the way), I saw a huge dragonfly nymph that was also a frog (at its head), crawling ever so slowly out of the water. I have to admit that I was a little freaked out by it at first. Dragonfly nymphs gave me the ‘heebie jeebies’ as a child - they covered the front (lakeside) of our house every spring. The fact that the image frightened me suggested that it was somehow related to my own power, that it was a(n unrealized) part of my self somehow. Since I believe that we’re not presented with anything we’re not ready for (spiritually, at least), and since it’s what I’d suggest if I was working with someone else (Ha!), I opened myself to its medicine…
Dragonfly nymphs are extremely voracious, and frogs are about cleansing (negative energies in particular). Put together, it suggests an entity that voraciously consumes negative energies for growth and transformation.
I believe that at this time, we’re on the earth plane to transform negative energies. To this point, they’ve helped us to grow (as nymphs, as it were), fed us to accommodate our transformation, even, but now it’s time to be aware of our capacity to utilize Frog’s cleansing medicines to clear up our illusions, to come to know the beauty of our true selves. As is reflected in nature (which is ‘us‘, by the way), this is something natural to us, something we’re built for.
Dragonfly medicine is about illusion (primarily). In this case, the illusion is in our perceptions, telling us that something is ‘ugly’ to begin with, something to be scared of. When is Dragonfly beautiful, and when is it ugly? Is it only beautiful when we see the shimmer of its wings? We are as beautiful as what we are becoming. We are our future selves.
What I describe next is (a condensed version of) how this new energy manifested in my immediate experience (I’d love to hear about yours, by the way)…
Two days after receiving that vision, I was guided to do a distance healing on someone who had a fear of flying. ’Isabelle’ had been offered an outstanding work opportunity, and was considering how/whether she’d cope with going overseas, as would be a requirement of her acceptance. We thought it might be helpful to others to describe her healing experience...
As I began to scan her, for the first time since I started my healing mission, I felt a very ‘cold’ energy. I was a little confused at first (in my experience, the best place to be). I was shown to feel above her heart, and saw a long, golden bug down the middle of her chest (in hindsight, like a really large dragonfly nymph). The coldness increased, and moved down her body. I wondered how many lifetimes ago this (’?’) had manifested for her. Without letting her on to what it was that I was questioning, I said, “I’m going to ask you a question. Tell me what comes first to your mind. How long has this been with you?”
“Nine!” she exclaimed, surprised by her reaction.
“Where are you? How do you feel?”
“I’m really scared! Someone (?) is chasing me.”
“I’m going to tell you that, even though who or what’s chasing you might seem aggressive and maybe more powerful than you, (it’s) chasing you out of its own fear.”
“I’m laying on the ground.”
I told her about an image I was given then… a (fifteen) year old girl, with reddish, matted hair (curiously, more like the thinning hair that an old woman would have), laying facedown on what looked like the outline of dragonfly wings.
I understood that this was a previous incarnation of her self, and that she was experiencing herself as though she’d already passed on (though Isabelle wasn’t necessarily conscious of it).
“Who do you want to come for you? Who do you most want to see?”
“My dad!”
At that moment, ‘The Chief ‘ came in…
“Daughter!… I’m right above you. I know you can see me. I just look like something scary to you… like a bug! Don’t be afraid. You’re just like me… you are me!”
I saw an image of a large dragonfly holding a smaller one underneath its belly…
“You have no idea how fast you are. You have no idea how powerful you are! Let me pick you up and fly with you. You can fly, but you don’t have to. I’ll hold you underneath me as I fly until you’re not scared anymore, and you’re ready to fly on your own. I love you so much! I would wait for you here for ever! Just reach up (to me).”
I could tell that the thought of ‘flying’ had snapped Isabelle back into (the illusion of) her present fears.
“No. I’m scared!”
…
“How about a hop?! A hop isn’t even flying! It’s where you feel the ground, and then you ‘play‘, and then you feel the ground again… Whumpp!!” …?
…
“How about a swim, then? I know how much you love(d) to swim!”
…
…”No.”
…
At this point, I was thinking to myself that, short of fire, there was only one element left. The Chief continued…
“How about digging? We’ll go under the ground! You’re surrounded on all sides there!” …?
…
“(In a little voice) Ok.”
“I’ll race you!” (The Chief likes to go fast.)
…
“Where are you, daughter? I can’t see you down here. All I see is black.”
“I’m in a hole.”
“Huh! …And what do you see when you look up?”
“I see light up there, at the top of the hole.”
“Hmmm… that’s a problem for you, isn’t it? How are you going to… “
“I’m out.”
“Wa-chay! That was fast! How did you get out already?”
“I flew.”
“(Teasingly…) You flew!?… Wa-chayy, you are fast!”
“Where are you now?”
“I’m back on the ground, looking up at the sky; I can see trees at the edges.”
“Will you fly with me now?”
“No. I’m still scared.”
…
“Ask the trees to make a hole for you, like when you were in the ground. They know you’re there. They’ll protect you, make you feel safe. They’ll surround you on all sides. Then you can fly, just like you just did. That’s how easy it is!”
“No.”
As I was scanning her body, I noticed that the cold (spot) was smaller, but still near her heart.
“Who else do you want to see?”
“My sister.”
“Where is your sister?”
“She drowned.”
…
“(Really upset…) I was supposed to be watching her!”
I also felt a cold spot in the left side of Isabelle’s belly. She continued…
“My aunt (/mother?) was really mad.”
[It got a little confusing here, because although she was referring to the drowned girl as ‘sister‘, we were given cues that she’d actually been her cousin to begin with. As her present incarnation, Isabelle was also confused when she talked about her aunt of that life. She couldn’t decide if the woman was ‘aunt’, or ‘mother’. We surmised that perhaps her own mother had died, or that it might’ve been customary in the society she was in at the time to take care of children communally.]
We came to understand that her ‘aunt’ was the one who had been chasing her. She must have caught her at some point, because she was the reason why Isabelle had ended up dead in the forest.
“Why did your sister choose to die that way, by drowning? She chose, you know.“
…
“Your heart knows. Your heart’s powerful enough to tell you that.”
…
“Because she was being beaten.”
…
“Your aunt was trying to blame you because of her own pain, because of her own fears about her pain catching up to her. That‘s why you were being chased. Do you see that? What does your heart say?”
“Yes.”
I’m going to give you some background to help you understand a little of what happened next. My twin-flame, Jenny, had only recently met Isabelle, but for the short time they’d known each other, they’d both been aware of an incredibly strong connection between them. Through the personal healing journey that Jenny and I have experienced together, I (also) know her as a ‘Water-Talker’. She was present for this particular session (she’s an exceptional healer herself), working on Isabelle’s physical body, and offering me confirmations and guiding words when they came to her. As ‘David’, I had a pretty good idea where this was going myself, and then The Chief nudged me…
“Do you want to talk to your sister?”
The Chief continued in a whisper, “Water-Talker, tell your sister what you have to say.”
“I’m ok, sister. I love you. I forgive you…. It’s ok.”
…
“Thank you.”
…
“I want to go swimming now.”
We went to the water (I imagined it was where her sister/cousin had drowned).
The Chief piped in again, “If you see a Beaver, you chase him! Noone swims faster than my Otter Daughter!”
“Slappp!!” The Chief had me clap my hands together loudly, like a Beaver’s tail on the water (trying to make his getaway).
…
“Where are you? You swim sooo fast; I can’t even see you!”
“I’m flying.”
“(Knowingly, teasingly…) You’re flying?”
I could ‘feel’ The Chief winking. I Love his sense of humour.
“I was swimming, but now I’m in the air, flying.”
“Huhh!”
“How about that. ‘Flying’, you say.”
(Again…) “Huhh!”
“And there’s no ground, or trees around you or nothing?”
“I’m just flying.”
“Huhh! Imagine that!”
I asked her to tell me what she saw, now that she was flying. Isabelle described clouds, and then looked down and saw her body on the ground. I asked her how she felt about the young girl she saw lying there. The Chief’s words - as her ‘Father’ - came to us. “With the Love you have for her, you would wait for her forever, wouldn’t you?“ From her new perspective, she realized that it had been her own, angelic self (played out by The Chief) that she’d been afraid of. She understood now that she’d had no need to be scared. Her fear of flying had been a fear of letting go, letting go of guilt, of sorrow, of fear itself. She’d been frightened of becoming the self that she already was (in a different form), herself as her own Dragonfly power. She is Isabelle and ‘sister’, while - in the same instant - she is her Father, and she’s her Mother (Earth), as much as we all are, One.
Namasté
Big Medicine Love to You!
~ Black Feather
Photo Credit:
Aitor Escauriaza
